It all started nine months ago. I was burnt to a crisp. Not just tired, but truly burnt out to ashes. Everything felt heavy. I had completely lost my bearings, I didn’t know how to move forward, who I was, or where I wanted to be. I was stuck in a rut and struggling with a constant self-sabotage. I kept telling myself that my skills were outdated, that I couldn't pay my bills anymore, and that nobody was interested in my work.
Even so, I tried to start small. I went looking for a guiding light, searching for a path similar to mine by reading dozens of stories on Reddit. I convinced myself that the solution was simple: I just needed a better planner. I was looking at various apps, testing a lot of them, but nothing stuck. The pressure started to mount. That feeling that something was wrong became clearer than ever. I was looking for a silver lining in a new app, but I finally realized I had to stop looking at the screen and start looking at myself.
In the middle of that fog, I finally stopped jumping from one tool to another. I committed doing small steps which I already knew, were helpful to feel myself better, to breath full, and felt better. I uncovered those in the Liven app. Soon, it became the one daily anchor I actually explored, and it turned out to be the key. I started to unfold my personality. I stopped guessing and started learning who I actually am, what brings me genuine joy, and exactly where I want to be.
My new habits were born. Those are: morning breathing and light yoga, jotting some thoughts with morning coffee, long works, arts and crafts, back to swimming trainings. I began to schedule those carefully. I realized that if I didn't own my schedule, my schedule would own me. Here is how I restructured my life.
By scheduling my life, I finally found the life I was looking for.
Now, I finally feel like I’m walking on air. I am lighter, inspired, and truly fulfilled. With a heart full of gratitude for the role the app played in my recovery, I decided it was time to close that chapter and cancel my Liven subscription. It wasn’t an act of frustration, but a sign that I had finally outgrown the training wheels, I was ready to fly solo.
Cancelling within the app itself often isn't enough to stop the clock. In my case, because I had subscribed via the website, it wasn't possible to cancel the subscription directly through the app. I was expected to cancel my membership in the website's account section instead. Since this wasn't immediately clear, I turned to support, and they did a great job helping me navigate the process.
Closing that account felt like the final step in my transformation. I’m no longer the person who needs an app to tell them how to breathe or plan.