End of my tether
I'm just done. Midway though TC chemo, not dealing well with the symptoms. I have my 88yo mum living with us, and if she asks me one more time "is there anything I can do to help" I'll screammmmmmm. She has dementia and I know I need to be patient but I just don't have the patience right now. She's not capable of much and there's really nothing she can do anyway. But every day, over and over, its all I hear. And she tells everyone I'm not letting her help 🤦♀️.
And this weeks joy. I had my shingles shot on Tuesday, approved by my oncologist and GP and by Tuesday night I was covered in hives all over my poor bald scalp, neck, arms, hands (palms too) and legs. Saw GP Wednesday morning, got steroids and antihistamines. Nothing is helping. Went to ED yesterday, they were stumped but just offered much stronger antihistamines and valium, only after I burst onto tears. I've used every cream possible, taken the tablets, nothing. At least they help me sleep.
Sorry for the vent, I'm just right at my tipping point.