First Situationship
I genuinely did not think this stuff actually happened but here I am.
Context:
I met this guy through a shared club we’re in, and at first I really didn’t like him. I thought he was uneducated and annoying but he is the only openly gay guy I know of at my school.
One day we randomly started talking and like realllyyyy hit it off like called every night and texted and I would stay up late to talk to him, and it was obvious we both liked eachother so he asked me out to my favorite restaurant. We set the date for a week out and then he just…stopped talking to me. Like I would text and just be left on read it was seriously radio silence.
The day before the date he texted me asking if we were still on and I was like “yeah!” Cuz I assumed maybe he was just really busy, so we went out and it went well! At the end he said “sorry I haven’t been talking to you, I promise I’ll call you tonight”
So I waited and…he just didn’t. A few weeks kind of go by, and because I’m dumb I asked him on another date and he said yes and that he was excited
One night he texted me to say “hey I miss talking to you I’ll call you in an hour” and so I waited literally all night like an idiot, every time I’d text him to say “are you still wanting to call?” He’d say yeah just give me a minute and there ended up being no call! Crazy! So I told him we could only be friends because I just can’t handle that kind of flakiness and then he started talking to me again? And things were kind of back in the grey area except for worse because obviously there was kind of something there- I mean, we went partner dancing “as friends” and someone asked him if we would go on a double date with them. He started acting excited? And then it was a whole thing where he was like “we can go if you want.” And kind of put my foot down to say “I want you to want to go out with me.” And he was like “I do haha I’m better at calling sorry”
Which…lame.
The issue:
So I started ignoring him a little bit, kind of hoping that he’d reach out and he didn’t. He texted me once and I wrote back like usual, but didn’t continue the conversation because I was waiting for him to put in the same effort. And now we just kind of both listen to Casual (canon event I know) and he kept reposting stuff about situationships and I should have talked to him about it but I was trying so hard to get over it I just kind of missed my shot??
He stopped liking my Instagram shit (stupid, but I feel like it says something because he’s on his phone all the time) and I’m still like. Hopelessly in love with this guy, it’s actually terrible because I feel like I messed up my shot and I know I shouldn’t be with someone who I don’t feel like cares but i was being a dick by ignoring him I think.
The worst part is we’re not compatible by any definition of the word. I would tell someone we’re going out and they would go “oh. I didn’t see that coming.” But I miss him so much
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If you made it through this whole rant and have any advice please tell me I’ll love u 5ever I genuinely just don’t know how to get over this when I feel like deep down we still like each other 💔💔