I failed my Capstone
Hi, this is my first time posting and I'm not entirely sure if this is the right subreddit for this so just a heads up on that. I have been struggling pretty much my entire way through college, I was diagnosed with ADHD not long after I started, and that has culminated in my failure of a capstone. I had a really shit semester and fell behind on pretty much everything (as usual) and really really struggled to catch up. I'll be able to pass all my other courses but of course the one course that I can't pass at this point is my capstone. I already have a bunch of courses scheduled for this summer, it was supposed to be the last of my degree requirements so I could officially graduate in August. Unfortunately, the program I'm in seems to require, specifically, a capstone and not an internship, and I don't have the money to go back and live on campus for another semester (commuting isn't possible in my case) not to mention how embarrassing that would be considering I already said all my goodbyes to all my friends and colleagues there (I know in the grand scheme of things this point is silly but I still can't help but feel ashamed). I'm sorry if this is really long and rambley, basically I just need advice on what to do here. I was all set to look for jobs in my home town and spend the next couple years getting some work experience and saving up for graduate school, I really can't afford to go back to campus, even for just a semester. I don't think any of the prospective positions I have in mind explicitly require that I have my degree, but I also know it would be really difficult to get into a graduate program without one. I have an appointment scheduled with my academic advisor (online) tomorrow to talk about all this so if you feel you can't give me any technical advice, life advice is also appreciated. I know logically that my disability is likely the cause of all this and that it's not necessarily my fault but I can't help but feel like I fucked everything up because I was lazy and irresponsible and if I had just tried a little harder I wouldn't be in this mess. I know I don't need a degree to be happy but I've been working towards this for the last four years and it just really sucks. Again, sorry for all the rambling, thank you to anyone that actually read through all of this and gives me any advice. I really appreciate it.