Asalamalikum, I came across this verse 33:52 about bondswomen. I understand that slavery and sex slaves were the norm back then but why would the prophet pbuh (the most trust worthy and someone we follow) have them if the concept of a sex slave is completely immoral?
so for context I was raised Muslim, I am a woman. I used to be very committed, praying all prayers on time, very strong faith. Sometime over a year ago I chose to wear hijab out of fear, I didn’t want to die not wearing it, I saw a lot of Hadiths shaming immodest women. After that my mental health severely deteriorated , I was having panic attacks, felt like I want myself anymore, felt a pressure to act a certain way, got treated differently. After about nearly a year I chose to take it off, because I just couldn’t take it anymore. Anyways this post isn’t just about hijab but ever since I put it on I just feel like my faith has weakened even though I thought it would do the opposite. Now I feel extreme guilt and fear, I just don’t think I can put it back on at the moment. Recently I have also been looking into Hadiths and they completely make me question Islam. Additionally, prior to me putting the hijab on I always felt like my duas got answered and now it’s like none of them are, and yes ik theres reasons for this but I just feel like everything pilling up is too much. I feel like a lot of Islam is being based on fear and pressure which only makes people build resentment. This all has been taking a toll on my mental health, anytime I try to build my faith it just fails. Anyways this is me just venting, I just don’t know what to do anymore.