Hi everyone! I don't know if this is the right place but I just wanna clear my head little bit. I (M26) recently I have been really stressed to the point where I started questioning every decision I have made. I haven't been able to make any progress in anything lately and I'm losing hope about the future.
Things are not going well for me right now. I don't make enough money, I have trouble with university (keep stalling starting it because of work/money/time), and the straw that broke the camel's back is this girl I've been talking to, in which I got soo invested.
2 days ago I decided to cut all ties with her in order to stop deluding myself about a life with her. I kinda shot myself in the foot and now regret it little bit bacause things were going well. To put it mildley, I'm really overwhelmed. Do you know how I know I'm losing my shit? I started watching tarot readings.. Yup. As If I can't become a bigger loser haha.
My family and friends are of no help either, they don't understand whats going on at all. I can't talk with anyone about any of this. When I start talking about serious subjects, they just say something random and change the topic right away. Also there is no beating around the bush in Eastern Europe, so you either get your shit together, or you fall off. People here lose respect immediately if you show signs of vulnerability.
This is a messy post, I'm sorry. Got any advice? Can anything good come out of this besides a decent metal song perhaps? Thank you.