Hello Reddit. I wanna start off by saying I’m sorry if this TMI. I’m afab and have known I liked both girls and boys. My first boyfriend abus3d me which scarred me a lot. Since then Ive been kinda weary about being with guys. I do like girls too and that fear that I have when I’m in a talking stage or even in a relationship with a guy is not there. I do still know I am attracted to guys. I have had crushes on guys.
My friends who are girls talk about guys a lot and getting with guys and yk fr3aky stuff but not like TMI and I just can’t relate. I don’t wanna be in a talking stage with a guy who wants to see my b0dy all the time. I also hate it when guys talk about my b0dy. Like I’m fine with them giving me compliment but I don’t know getting fr3aky with a guy rly grosses me out. I guess i could if I gave it time but like to would be quite a long time. It’s the complete opposite with girls. I really don’t mind being a fr3ak with a girl as long as consent is involved and well to the drill. But still it takes time.
I do picture myself with a guy like in marriage but I can also see myself with a girl. But I guess thats not too important.
I want to know if I’m doing something wrong. Why do I feel like this? Why am I not as fr3aky as everyone else? And Am I bi or just kidding myself?. Answers or opinions will be much appreciated. Thanks for listening