I noticed the ego doesnt like the present moment at all its always trying to keep its self relevant i got adhd and thoughts never stop coming in they really ramp up when im heading on my way to work. It hard to stay in the direct experience or the present. Gotta keep moving my awareness down into the body instead contracted into the head..
I am going to be going on ssri i got adhd and i am very hesitant to go on them im afraid of them numbing me or effecting my ability to feel things I been always dealing with depression my whole life im 35. I just dont want it to distor my reality. I been doing vipassana and I just recently noticed alot of my depression is because im always contracted in the head instead of my body. I have never been on ssris. I do take stimulants. I just dont want to be on ssris for the rest of my life. I told my wife I would go on them for her. It feels like I am cheating if I go on ssris