I remember seeing before chicken broth that was made in a specific way, maybe by simmering it for a very long time, that it turns white and creamy. Is that actually a thing, and can it be made with an instant pot easily?
26 (m), A left temporal AVM that I didn't know I had ruptured last year. After exhausting the options available, I went in for a Gamma Knife operation. Pain comes and goes mostly in the form of seizures that are often in the form of sharp or pulsating pain. I am very prone to dizziness that can last for hours, or seizures that are reminiscing of a stroke where I have little control over my mouth muscles, tongue and lose my ability to speak.
Question is, am I being cowardly by staying away from adulting until hopefully the Gamma Knife takes effect and the AVM closes up? For example, Just focusing on creating my resume is enough to make me seize up or get irrationally irritated (something that happened after the rupture, don't know if it's psychological or not.) The sun makes me dizzy and activity where I move my head a lot almost feels like the AVM area is flaring up where the pain makes it hard to function, and the fear of rebleeding would happen. After all, I bled while going to sleep so I don't see how doing physical activity is playing it safe.
I do realize I have a traumatic fear of my AVM reopening, and that there is a difference between seizure pain and rebleeding. I decided I am not going to work and instead focus on recovery and light software development from home (which is my career). But some of those around me are afraid for my mental health, that the fear is stopping me from living normally.
From my perspective, I do not mind losing two years of my life in the name of recovery. Better than rebleeding or embarrassing myself at a job because I got a seizure mid-day due to stress, or that because someone called me while I am sleeping and uh oh, I now can't speak for the rest of the day, sort of thing.
I mainly want to wait for two years (8 months have already passed since the operation) so that at least I am not walking around fearing a rebleed. Maybe then the seizure pains and inconveniences won't be too stressful.
I thought about therapy but I don't think it's the best thing for me right now. I get energy spurts here and there, but I don't exercise and I do not work. I still clean, do the dishes etc. Not depressed. Do you have advice for me? Am I overreacting to the fear of pain and the possibility of rebleeding?
They would go, "this is good ahhh i can't believe it" - what is that all about