How do you know real progress?
So i dont know how much to share but, im at a very strange place in my life.
After 10+ years on anti depressants after a rough first half of life i found myself in a place of stability, it took months but i came off them. During this time i began reading Jung, Robert Moore, Robert johnson etc. I began to practice meditiation, and recently tai chi. I was in therapy for a year (i intend to go back when i have the money)
Ive been trying to continue work alone, recording my dreams, and pull back projections and trying to explore what archetypes and complexes are active in my psyche.
Ive been able to identify a few (alot) things going on. And feel less under their influence, theyre still there but they're something i watch for. Complexes and Projections.
I think this is intuition, im not sure, but sometimes when listening to stories or podcasts i will see certain words or phrases spelled out in my imagionation, and ill sit with them for a while or explore the symbology in it and then something 'clicks' and im able to identify where that is in me. Then ill work on that for a while. I thought this might even be the shadow or the Self nudging me in the right direction. Im not sure but its been very helpful.
Ive recently recieved a diagnosis, of a physical disorder thats treatable with - antidepressants.
Its sent me on a bit of a spiral. Im worried that im not going to feel like myself again, everything ive gone through over the past 5 years was for nothing- ive even started to think- that all the progress i think ive made has just been the trickster all along.
I suppose what im asking is, is there a way to tell the difference between the trickster/ego thinking its progress?
Do i just stop trying untill i can afford therapy again?
Ill be taking the medication, but will it dampen the intuition?