Feeling hopeless
I have had debilitating anxiety and depression for almost two years now to the point where i havent been able to keep a job. i have been in bed for the past 5-6 months basically barely leaving my bed and barely doing anything. my anxiety is health/death anxiety that has turned into me having panic and anxiety attacks daily. i constantly feel like im going to die even right now i am panicked. i am also scared of taking medicine and had to start a new medication last night and have been spiraling ever since. i havent started my ssri bc im genuinely scared of the side effecrs and just feel like IM going to feel this way forever. i am stuck between being so scared im going to die constantly to wanting to die to end the pain of all of this. just feeling very alone