u/Material_Advice1064

Been reaching out to people who post about being in similar situations but no one responds back. I understand if you're in a difficult position it can be hard to open up about it but since I haven't had much luck messaging people I'm making my own post.

Here's the part I write about all the fun things I'd like to do with a friend... except I can't actually afford anything I enjoy doing lol. But, I know I can't be the only one in this situation and yet it seems so hard to find others who understand. Maybe we are all just trying to make ends meet and don't have the time or energy for friends. I get that too. Still though, I want to make an effort because I believe it only gets harder when we isolate ourselves.

I doubt I could solve anyone's problems or vice versa but at least we could commiserate or share our aspirations for the future. I'm just tired of being alone and idly passing my time watching anime or doom scrolling with nothing to really look forward to.

I've been identifying as nonbinary for a few years now but it always felt like there was more to the picture that I just hadn't figured out yet. I've had a lot of thoughts about it since realizing. I still don't feel like I experience as much body dysphoria as most binary trans people although I do hope to start low dose T later this year and eventually get a hysterectomy.

A lot of the time I think my feelings are that I just so happen to be a man with a woman's body. I feel less distress about my body than I do about how people perceive me. I know that people don't see me the way I see me and I feel like it's unfair that the only way to change that (at least for strangers) is to change my body. I guess I've sort of separated who I am from my body? And I feel a bit silly asking or expecting others to do the same, but I wish they would. Idk, this realization has brought up a lot of new questions for me about how I should navigate the world, but I can't be the only transmasc person who has felt this way.