Throwaway because I don't want this attached to my main.
Some background, I'm ftm 19. I was diagnosed with GAD when I was 11 and later ASD when I was 15. I received very little help from the school system and while my mum tries her best, she just doesn't really get it whenever I try to explain it to her.
Everything is going downhill recently and I don't know what to do. I go through periods of serious delusions followed by episodes of mania and depression and I don't know how to talk to anyone about it. I'm so angry and upset all the time and nothing feels real.
I have no money for therapy or a psychiatrist. Everyone I've ever brought this up with tells me it's just teenage hormones or normal puberty or something to do with my already diagnosed problems. I feel so alone and I don't know what's wrong with me and I don't know how to bring it up with anyone. Any advice is appreciated.