Hey I wanna get this off my chest today it was the most embarrassing day of my life as a hijabi my autistic brother (suffers with brain damage) hugged my hijabi friend and I just met her irl today and so she felt so uncomfortable and she seems upset and I talked to her older sister on next to me there and she said it’s nothing to be embarrassed about god made him that way it’s not ur fault I understand but the younger one looked upset and even on text I mentioned it she said “it’s fine I understand” nothing like don’t worry about it or anything a lil more.
I hate that text sm made me feel like shit why she make it so simple why not say something a lil more why couldn’t she say it’s okay not ur fault don’t be sorry about it or it’s in my head. This was my biggest fear growing up as a kid being in public with my brother since he would speak loud or stare at people in a way or something obv not everyone knows he is brain damaged and so as a person with severe anxiety especially in public I would want to stay home growing up or go out when he is not there or when he is I would walk away. Now as I am 20 I don’t do that anymore I feel bad but sometimes when I feel so anxious I walk away again. Idk how to make myself strong on this and not care what people think. I just hate eyes on me and I don’t like being the center of attention but when my bro is there he makes everyone’s eyes on me.