Trigger Warning: Child abuse and sex trafficking
Hello, I know that’s a heavy thing to read, but please hear me out. My name is Lily and I’m 24. I struggle to make friends because I’m autistic and can never really open up. It’s hard to make real connections when my only topics can be my day or weather. Anything else usually ends up with me having to censor myself. For example, Mother’s Day is coming up. When I’m asked about my plans I lie that I’m spending the day with my mom and going out for brunch. In reality, I’m planning on going no contact with her because she sexually, physically, emotionally, and financially abused me for over two decades. I’m safe now and finally escaped that home. I was horrifically abused and sex trafficked by both my biological parents. I’ve learned that what I went through can be considered torture and I deal with several mental issues such as anxiety, depression, C-PTSD, and a possible dissociative disorder. I’d love to just talk to anyone without having to constantly censor myself. I promise not to vent and I’ll do my best to avoid the uncomfortable parts of my past. However, I’d appreciate if I’d be able to casually mention them without it killing the conversation. Of course, put your mental health first and do not message me if you do not have the emotional bandwidth to talk with me. If you got here, thank you for reading even if you don’t message me. Have a nice day!