I just need this off of my chest
I have always had problems with my emotional regulation. And I take things way too seriously and extreme. But I always kept it to myself
For a few months I have been feeling excluded from my friendgroup and replaced by another person. I started intentionally falling down the stairs gently (not enough to actually do something to myself), I cut myself, and I sat on the windows and was literally laying so my torso and head were out. Almost slipped from the third floor.
Yeah so yesterday it got really bad there were too many occasions where I felt excluded but it was more about the fact how much things piled up. And I fell brutally from the stairs. I got a slightly fractured fibula from what I understood. And I have been bawling my eyes out now that I am aware I won’t be able to do a lot of the things I used to do for a really long period of time. All because of my impulsive idiocy