u/Massive_Classic8352

I 28f been married to my husband 35m for 8 years now and we have two wonderful children 5 year old son and a 3 year old daughter. I never felt truly happy in this marriage. The last two years I’ve been thinking about a divorce. For context this is how our average day is going: husband leaves for work in the morning and I spend the whole day with kids, when he comes home he doesn’t talk to me or our kids, does not interact with us, he doesn’t acknowledge my existence at all and I get it he’s tired from work and just wants to rest but he completely ignores me even when I approach him nicely or ask him something simple. He never gives me compliments, he made me feel so insecure about my looks that I got a nose job last year and got botched (as a result I’m very depressed). I thought that maybe if I fix my face for him he would treat me better (I know stupid) but surprise he doesn’t give a shi. He knows I’m depressed and he never checks on me, all I wanted is to be seen by him. I wanted him to love me and appreciate me. Instead I always got belittle and degraded. He’s a huge narcissist. It hurts to know I spend all these years with someone who couldn’t care less about me. There were many unpleasant things happening in our marriage and I know he doesn’t love me but when I ask him directly about it he denies it. But words don’t matter at this point bc his actions speak loud and clear. I just want out.