I am a 17F and I’ve ignored responsibilities sometimes, I procrastinate, I get defensive when I feel controlled, and I need better habits. I am completely aware of these things. I want to break these cycles on my own, by myself, in my own space. Where I can deal with my consequences by myself.
My mother wants to break this cycle with me so she yells and screams at me to do stuff when she does it. I do not respect her, she gets mad at me for accountability but she does not have a job, she lives off of her ex-husband (my father's) social security and child support. I'm aware she has a mood disorder but she's about to be a 50 year old woman and throws tantrums when her 17 year old yells back.
I have always been a level-headed mature young adult, but i am sick of being that. I am tired of everything. I want to be mad and stay mad, i want that luxury. I want to yell and scream at her and watch her get mad when I say the truth.
I have an internship, scholarships, and plans to move as far away from here as I can, and I am more than willing to solve my current problems away from being nagged and controlled.