I honestly don’t know where to start, I am just a failure at this point. Spent the least 5 years of my life trying to make it or at least have a decent life but everything I did failed and maybe I am the problem.
My parents always compare me to others (yes I still live with them) which makes it even worse, everyday I have to listen to their speech reminding me that I am worthless.
Financially wise I have 8k debt that people ask me everyday to return it to them but I just simply can’t, I don’t even remember what having peace in ur mind feels like just constant thinking over and over.
I am not a person who give up usually but I am just exhausted I feel empty from inside, siting in my room all day and oversleeping, no appetite I am basically dead but alive.
I feel like I am not expressing enough what I feel but it doesn’t matter anyway i guess, i am writing this to maybe find someone who can help me mentally and financially.
The only thing that is holding me back from doing something I would regret is my long distance gf, I don’t show her anything from what i said above and acting fine and she is an amazing person but I just can’t tell her about it, is it an ego thing I don’t know.