I think my derealization is making suicide a logical option
I don’t know how to explain this exactly. My entire reality feels fake, like some sort of simulation I no longer wish to entertain or be part of. It’s a weird feeling and when I tell people about it, they don’t really understand. I either feel like I’m going crazy, or like I understood something I wasn’t supposed to. Weird idk. I keep asking myself If I get a say in any of this, and by this I mean everything.
I’ve been taking antideps for two months now. Been working well for a few weeks but i crashed out about two or three days ago. Maybe it’s because I started taking them in the morning instead of at night? Or maybe it’s because I tried too hard to work on myself and got deep into certain subjects (Creation being finished, Simulation theory, Neville Godard, manifesting, infinite realities…).
Yall ever experience this? Any advice?
I don’t want to do something stupid but I’m also suuuuuper tired.
Thanks for any replies.