Hard to accept infertility
I remember reading posts after 6 months of trying and saying “I’m frustrated but it’s still technically early, it will happen”. And then a year hit and I thought okay it has to happen soon… like this month… and now I’m 18 cycles in.. never a positive test. All basic testing is normal and it’s time I see a specialist. Sometimes I really can’t believe, can’t understand, how or why this is happening. My body is healthy, I am healthy. Why is it failing again and again? We started trying at 34 and now I’m almost 36. It feels like life is happening without me and that everyone has a growing family except me. I feel sad is an understatement. This has been the most mentally challenging time of my life. If I have any advice.. go see a specialist earlier. After 6 months make the appointments. It doesn’t mean it won’t happen naturally but the greif just continues, feels like it worsens, month after month.
I just felt like I needed to post. To remember I’m not alone.