Loneliness
Title: I don’t know how to deal with this loneliness anymore…
Hello everyone,
Ami usually ei type er personal kotha share kori na, but ekhon mone hocche ami nijeke niye confused hoye gechi… tai ekhane likhchi.
Ami technically ekla na. Ami din-e busy thaki, bari te thaki, abar besir vag somoy busines er kajer jonno baire thaki amader family import-export business ache, sekhaneo involved thaki. Outside theke dekhle mone hobe amar life thik ache.
Kintu vitore vitore ami khub ekla.
Amar kono girlfriend nei ekhon. Age amar ekjon khub close friend chilo, she pore amar girlfriend hoyechilo. Kintu she amake chere dey jokhon tar purono boyfriend abar fire ashe. Tarpor theke ami ar sei bhabe karo sathe connect korte pari ni ar chestao temon korini .
Ami onek try korechi move on korte. Counselling korechi, books porechi, daily exercise kori, yoga kori, nijeke busy rakhar try kori. But truth is… ei loneliness ta jay na.
Ar boro kotha holo amar kono close friend ar nei. Je kichu friend chilo tara ekhon onno city ba country te, sobai nijer life niye khub busy. Ami bujhi, kintu amar sathe kotha bolar moto keu nei.
Kono din mone hoy ami ekdom surrounded by people, kintu emotionally ami completely alone.
Ekhon ami ar bujhte parchhi na ami ki korbo.
Notun friendship banabo? Kintu trust kora niye amar bhoy lage.
Na ki relationship e focus korbo? Kintu ami sure noi seta solution kina, na sudhu temporary relief.
Ami ekta weird in-between phase e atke gechi… neither moving forward, nor able to stay where I am.
Jodi keu ei rokom phase diye thaken ba kono advice thake, ami sincerely grateful thakbo.
Thanks for reading.