u/MammothFrosty9111

So I'm basically having memories of lives I haven't lived, not fantasies, but actual memories. They feel super real. I first started trying to astral project and then reality shift from a young ish age (I was about 16 I think when I first tried) and since then memories come to me. They aren't my memories, seemingly just memories of my own but from other realities. The universe is infinite and has so many possibilities which is what kind of backs reality shifting as a thing. Some memories have me as both a politician and super hero of sorts. The memory I have of this that I think of first is me getting changed in a bathroom out of civilian clothes and into my hero attire then stopping a meteor from hitting a city. Another I see from a different reality is me in a different country I've dreamed of living in for years being well off living in a studio apartment and working a retail job. These are really the main 2 I have memories from.

I say they're memories because fantasies don't feel this real. I have emotions related to these memories and remember how I felt in those memories. Maybe I reality shifted and didn't realize, maybe someone shifted into MY body and I have their memories because of it, idk. I've never done any sort of psychedelics like shrooms or LSD so it isn't a side effect from that. Does anybody else have experience with this kind of thing? I want to know how it works and how I'm getting memories from alternate realities. I said I have tried to reality shift and astral project but I was only able to astral project once. Reality shifting has given me no luck so I haven't successfully shifted, however I got close at one point. Again, any advice from people who have this same kind of experience as me let me know, or if someone knows how this works also please let me know.

So my grandfather is in his mid-late 80s. He has a reputation of being the meanest dickwad in any room, both among family and friends. He doesn't have many people left other than my grandma who is also not well, my father, an aunt, and an uncle. I have no good memories with this man. He would constantly make comments on my weight when I wasn't even at puberty age yet, made me not look forward to family events because he was and still is so vile and toxic, and is a blatant Nazi. Now I don't use that word lightly. He genuinely advocates for eugenics and the Aryan race, saying things like "they're trying to erase us, it used to be that commercials had whites with blue eyes and blonde hair and now it's full of nonwhites" (paraphrased). He also would beat my father when he was a kid, coming home angry and kicking my dad until he wasn't as mad anymore. He hates all the family spouses because they're either women or gay men, he has no respect for women and makes this known. My grandmother has dementia and he doesn't show empathy for her and he's locked her out of the house before when she has wandered off. To top this all off, he was a part of the KKK when he was younger, openly admitting this proudly to anyone he can. Some bullshit about whites and heritage.

Now why I say he's possibly dying is my parents have noted concerningly that he seems to not be as on his feet as he used to be and he's not as physically strong. I saw him today when he came over and he was wayy thinner than the last time I saw him (I hadn't seen him in a few months) and he doesn't look healthy at all. I saw how he was moving and how physically slow he is. When he dies I will not be going to the funeral. I will be there for my dad and his siblings, but I will not mourn his loss, the only concern I will have is for my grandmother. There is no good in this man, I genuinely don't believe he has a shred of good in him. When he dies I will not lose sleep over it, and again I will not go to the funeral. If there is even a shred of inheritance that goes to me in the will I will reject it, I don't care if it's simply a tool set or if it's greater like a large sum of money, I do not want nor need anything left to me by him. When he is gone I will probably feel relief. I feel he is an absolute stain on the family and I am glad I am not blood related. I believe that when death takes him, he will go to whatever hell is out there and I probably will not be the only one who won't miss him when he's gone.

Edit: So, a lot of y'all seem to be telling me that I should donate to a charity he dislikes if I get inheritance, and I think that's something I'll consider doing, possibly either BLM or the Trevor Project. Thanks for the idea y'all!