i used to be terrified of intimacy, but then i discovered my favorite pastime is being
i've been single for the past year and a half, and it's been liberating. or so i thought. lately, i've found myself seeking out online dating profiles that seem more like fetish sites than typical dating apps. i know it sounds weird, but i'm drawn to men who are into bdsm, kink, and general non monogamy.
my secret is that i've always had a weird turn on when it comes to watching people have sex. i know it sounds voyeuristic, but there's something about the intimacy, the trust, and the physical connection that gets me going. i've tried to brush it off as just being curious or adventurous, but deep down, i think it's because i've never felt comfortable being intimate with someone else.
i've always been a bit of a prude when it comes to dating and relationships. i've put up walls around myself to protect others from my "issues." but now, i'm starting to realize that these walls are also what's keeping me from feeling truly alive.
i'm not looking for anything serious or exclusive just yet. i just want to explore this strange fascination of mine without being judged or shamed. has anyone else out there had a similar experience? am i just weird, or is this something more?
tl;dr 28f seeks like minded individual(s) for non monogamous, kink y adventures and sex positive exploration