How long does it take for AGP to turn into "I want to live as a woman at the minimum"?
For me personally I started watching heterosexual female pov porn with like 21, and it took I think about 6 months to make me question myself. on whether I was trans. I don't really remember correctly, but if I am being VERY generous with the timeline it couldn't have been more than 2 years. I was already in the nofap community, then found out about AGP and have since labeled myself with AGP. At first I also had a time, when I first got into female pov porn, where I was very ashamed of being sexually attracted to the man in the porn and worried whether I was gay. But I don't honestly think that I am gay. I just wonder how long it took you guys to go "I am may be trans and would actually like to live as a woman." from the first sexually female identified experience. Also, I have never cross-dressed or "acted out" in real life. I am a virgin at age 30. I kissed a few girls. I slept in bed next to one, that wanted to have sex with me. I had opportunities. But for some reason, I never really pursued women. Even though I was attracted to them and found them beautiful. Also, when I imagine myself as a woman, I think I would date exclusively men. I just wonder, whether AGP has really fucked my mind up and whether it actually is AGP. I fear and hope it is. I hate that those feelings are AGP, yet I don't hate the feelings themselves at all. I don't hate the feminine feelings at all, I think they are serene and beautiful. I am grateful I feel them, actually. I just hate their origin. I can't unsee that I first thought I was trans after watching female pov porn. I can't unsee the sexual component. So I have to assume it is AGP. And I am not willing to claim I have a female mind, or that I am a trans woman. I don't want to reduce womanhood and femininity to a paraphilia. I don't want to be a guy who usurps femininity and claims to be a woman, just because he watched too much porn and messed up his brain. I could never forgive myself for that.