Graduating in two months and I realized I hate my major. Is it too late to pivot to something fun?
I am sitting here looking at my final project and I honestly want to set my laptop on fire. I have spent nearly four years grinding for a degree in Business Administration because everyone told me it was the safe choice. My parents keep talking about corporate ladders and 401ks but every time I think about spending forty hours a week in a cubicle looking at spreadsheets I feel like my soul is shriveling up. I realized way too late that I actually love event planning and creative direction. I spent more time organizing underground music shows and styling shoots for my friends than I did studying for my finance exams.
The problem is that my resume looks like a boring corporate template. I have one internship at a bank where I mostly just scanned papers and tried not to fall asleep during morning meetings. Now I am seeing all these job postings for creative agencies and they want portfolios and "vibrant energy" while I just have a high GPA and a lot of resentment. My mom says I should just get a "real job" first and do my hobbies on the side but I know how that goes. You get tired and then you wake up ten years later still hating your Mondays.
Is it actually possible to get hired in a creative field when your degree screams "I want to work in accounting"? I feel like a total fraud trying to apply for things that actually excite me because I do not have the right piece of paper. Maybe I should just lean into the chaos and apply anyway but the thought of being rejected by the cool people and then having to crawl back to a bank is terrifying. I just need to know if anyone else pivoted right at the finish line without ruining their entire life. I have two months to figure this out before I have to start paying back loans and I am panicking just a little bit.
I just spillled coffee on my notes and I am not even going to clean it up.