I have had a cocaine habit for a few years now and over the past 6 or so months it has gotten worse. I didn't use every day, mostly because I couldn't afford to do that, but whenever ai did use I'd drain my bank account and go on a big bender usually lasting days.
recently I got banned from my best friends house by her mother because she found out I was using coke in her house and that really hurt me, because she has always been like a second mother to me. since that happened I decided to really try and get clean and hopefully repair things with her. I was clean for 2 and a half months. The longest I have gone without using in years, but last night I relapsed and I guess I am just dissapointed in myself for it. I have to do better next time and control my impulses because I can't lose more people from my life due to my drug use.