u/LtoloxaAxolotl

I hate when I'm angry

I hate when I'm not

I hate that I can't

Just give up on these thoughts

I hate what you did

I hate that you're gone

I mostly just hate

I can't fix what is wrong

"In sickness and health"

Meant nothing to you

So I hate it's ingrained

In all that I do

You may be gone now

But one thing rings true

It's obvious I cared

A lot more than you

Be it physical, mental, emotional, etc

If I'm in pain, my brain sits outside of it. It's why I never react appropriately to broken bones or illness or breakups.

And I think it's why I haven't properly grieved my husband.

And I hate it so much, but I don't know how to fix it.