I am at a point where I should see light at the end of the tunnel. All works that need publishing have been published, I have written like 120 pages of my dissertation (but it feels like so much hasn't been said). My biggest problem is loneliness. This is social and in terms of academic supervision.
My work group (located in Germany) was really just our PI, my colleague (now not here anymore) and me. My PI and I used to meet up like weekly for a long time and now we had like 3 meetings this year. Main reason for that is that he was sick for like 6 weeks, when he came back work had piled up and now he took two weeks off because his wife is sick (badly). So yeah, I cannot even blow up his emails with a clear conscience.
I have friends but they don't relate to the kind of pressure I'm under and the one who would get it just started a new job where he is totally swamped atm. Also all my friends are busy with life it seems, and I'm just at home, dragging myself to my desk whenever I've got it in me.
For all my life I felt completely fine when I was alone. I'd do my stuff and be happy. But now I feel isolated and like nobody wants me. Just needed to get this out. Thank you for your attention to this matter.