u/Lower_Variation4756

I’ve always struggled in school, never had a problem making friends or anything like that although I have had some rough moments mainly including my middle school years. High-school was fun and I felt a little behind but still managed, my sophomore year I made some stupid decisions and long story short didn’t go the rest of the second semester. When I did get back to school it wasn’t in person it was online, I have 3 credits left til I graduate now. But I feel stuck. I don’t have a lot of friends I mainly hangout with my family, I am close with a cousin of mine and have made good friends with someone he introduced me to. Just me having a normal conversation with my friend let’s just call him Jordan, I feel slow and think to myself, what did I really learn in school, it seems a lot of the people around me are just very wise when it comes to certain things and seem like they’ve already got it figured out, I shut myself down in big groups, I feel like I lost my happy go lucky side of myself that everyone loved being around, I feel like I just lack the motivation for anything, relationships, school, etc. Now I don’t expect or want something to jusr fall into my lap butI definitely think college isn’t an option but I would not be opposed to doing a trade, but when I look at how much some of these trades make it just doesn’t seem like a comfortable living amount, my dream in life is to be successful and to be able to provide for myself and my family comfortably, but I wanna do it without college and crazy expensive things, what should I do?