I finished my first year with 3.7 gpa then there comes fucking second year will end up with 3.0 cgpa I had 3 year long courses (eco227,eco206 and eco208) then pol109 and cs108 my brain literralt shutted off during finals idk how tf was I supposed to know 20 topics on top of my head for these 3 year long courses on top of two others but I genuinely really struggled with my discipline this year.
I genuinely woke up everyday thinking that I have to study so much would not want to wake up (who tf wants so start a day just to study) and hated my life for a year. I’m an international student and also felt so alone during the year which pulled me down a lot.
Now on the gpa side of things I’m sure I can fix it by the time that I am graduating by retaking at least 2 of these year long ones but it’s genuinely impossible to get a good internship with 3.0 I also can’t wrap my head around the fact that we are applying for 2027 summer already or people got accepted like I don’t even stand a chance. I won’t be able to get into any top firm without an internship so lowkey over for me
I am trying to join associations but never got accepted to good ones like UTCA or 180DC I am studying econ trying to get into financial consulting in big 4 or public sector atp I don’t care anything. But it does need to be a good firm or why is my parents paying 60k just for tuition. I feel so stuck and don’t know what to do anymore. I am at home right now and my parents can’t stop talking about how lazy I am
Like how do I recover from this