De-impacting my mom is my worst nightmare 💩
Yet I have to do it at least once a week. If not more....also when she has loose stools, it is a complete event because of SA as a child, that is now the first thing she thinks of whenever anyone goes to change her. So she fights like a mad woman and she is super strong for some reason. She is late stage 7, cannot do anything for herself except hold a cup and shuffle along. But other than that, nothing she says is coherent. She just sits there with that wide-eyed stare that I cannot bear to look at half the time. My mom was my best friend my entire life and I hate this disease so much. My husband and I have been caring for her for the last 7 years. And she is extremely physically healthy, but her brain is mush. I miss my mom and I hate this disease. My husband is an absolute saint of a man because he helps me with literally everything. I cannot be more grateful to him. But this is disease is s***, and I truly truly feel sorry for all of us that go through this. She cannot go into a home. Can't afford it. And I will not put her in the hospice house until she is closer to end-of-life. But I cannot wait to get a normal life back. However, I miss my mom even though she's sitting right in front of me.