Help processing after first reiki session
I had my first Reiki session recently after someone very close to me passed away. I was having a really hard time processing everything and felt emotionally “stuck,” so I mostly went because I wanted help releasing some of that grief.
I didn’t realize beforehand that some people believe Reiki can bring through messages or spirits from loved ones. During the session, the practitioner said she felt the person I was grieving came through, but she also told me that I’m “very intuitive” and that my spirit team was basically telling her that I “have the gift.”
Part of me immediately thought, “Okay, she probably says this to everyone,” and I genuinely do not know if that’s true or not. But another part of me feels like it would explain a lot of experiences I’ve had throughout my life.
I’ve always had moments where I strongly felt something bad was going to happen before it did. My mom and grandma also both believe the women in our family have some kind of intuition around bad events. For example, my grandma said she suddenly saw “red” right before her son had a heart attack and felt like something terrible was happening even though she didn’t know what. There have been other stories too.
So now I’m stuck wondering if I’m just experiencing confirmation bias and connecting random events because of what the Reiki practitioner said, or if there actually could be something to it. How do people tell the difference between intuition and just reading meaning into things afterward?
My other question is this: ever since the Reiki session, I feel like I can “talk” to the person who passed. Not literally hearing voices, but more like I can feel her presence and internally have conversations with her. I’ve also asked for signs that she’s still around, and every time I’ve asked, something has happened that felt very specific and comforting.
But I honestly can’t tell if this is a spiritual experience, grief/shock, my brain trying to cope, or some combination of all of those.