u/Low-Tip-7867

I’m currently in a situation between two of my former friends that has been caused by the lack of respect I’ve been given and understanding of my situation. There has been no acknowledgment/radio silence that we aren’t friends anymore that’s why I feel a strong urge to send a message explaining everything in detail and ending things with them because none of them want to be humble or create a understanding of the situation so I feel forced to do it. I’ve written almost an essay and I feel ridiculous, I feel like it has something to do with
me leaving things unsaid in other friendships/situations making them feel unresolved. I’m young but I’ve had a lot of friendships that ended due to them not having respect for me and treating me lesser, I’ve ended almost every friendship I’ve been in due to this. I need some wisdom from a fellow INFJ on this and similar experiences because I feel very alone on all of this.
I feel like there’s something wrong with me because lot of former friends say I take things too "personally" even though I’ve been proven time and time again that friends will passively abuse you and take advantage of you if given the chance. Probably weird thing to say but "smiling faces sometimes" feels more relatable each day. Hopefully someone has any relatable advice or can relate to what I’m talking about. Thanks.