u/Low-Dragonfruit-4345

Uncontrollably Rage

I’m a 23m INTP. I just posted this on istps subreddit but it's as dry as the savanna desert, so I'll ask you all instead.

​Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been made fun of for being "weird." Even at this point in my life, it continues. I’ve started standing up for myself more nowadays—to extreme lengths, even—but when I think back on how I allowed myself to be disrespected in the past, I get overwhelmed. I feel extreme urges to do harm to others and other stuff I won't mention here. I’m trying not to go down that route because I have goals I want to achieve.

​I’m an aspiring writer, but try as I might, whenever I start to write, these thoughts come to me in droves. It reaches a point where writing becomes almost impossible, and I’m at my wits' end. I’m not on speaking terms with my parents and I have no friends. For me, the isolation isn't the problem; I’ve been alone all my life, so I’m used to it.

​However, if it’s possible, I would like to find ways to control this. Since you all share inferior Fe (Extroverted Feeling) with INTPs, I thought I’d ask if any of you have dealt with something similar. I don't want to act on what my thoughts are telling me, but I’m afraid that one day, I might just stop caring.

I’m a 23m INTP. I originally wanted to ask other INTPs this question, but I find it hard to take their community flairs seriously.

​Ever since I was a kid, I’ve been made fun of for being "weird." Even at this point in my life, it continues. I’ve started standing up for myself more nowadays—to extreme lengths, even—but when I think back on how I allowed myself to be disrespected in the past, I get overwhelmed. I feel extreme urges to do harm to others and other stuff I won't mention here. I’m trying not to go down that route because I have goals I want to achieve.

​I’m an aspiring writer, but try as I might, whenever I start to write, these thoughts come to me in droves. It reaches a point where writing becomes almost impossible, and I’m at my wits' end. I’m not on speaking terms with my parents and I have no friends. For me, the isolation isn't the problem; I’ve been alone all my life, so I’m used to it.

​However, if it’s possible, I would like to find ways to control this. Since you all share inferior Fe (Extroverted Feeling) with INTPs, I thought I’d ask if any of you have dealt with something similar. I don't want to act on what my thoughts are telling me, but I’m afraid that one day, I might just stop caring.