Does anyone know if there is any other way to know if I’ll be graduating before the list is released on Friday?
I know it’s just two days. My anxiety is killing me; I can’t even sleep. I’ve double and triple checked all of my courses and credits. I’ve been accepted to a Master’s program for the fall at UNB and I keep worrying that I messed something up. I’m so worried I’m going to have missed a course and not be able to graduate.
Yesterday I finally started T after years of wanting to transition. I’m 32 years old, and I used to think it was too late for me, but I finally got up the courage to come out. I had top surgery earlier this year, and got a prescription for T last week.
I have pretty complex mental health conditions, the main ones being OCD and bipolar II. My OCD primarily revolves around health, but more specifically, around the constant fear/obsession that I’m going to develop schizophrenia. This is one of the things that has kept me off T… I’ve heard it can exacerbate mental health conditions. I keep panicking that I have some underlying, prodromal schizophrenia and that T is going to bring it out.
Despite this, I took my first dose of androgel yesterday. Just one pump. By the end of the day I was definitely experiencing changes; for instance, pretty significant bottom growth (it started with tingling/buzzing down there followed by some pain, and when I looked, it looked dramatically bigger). I also experienced some hot flashes and a bit of scratchiness of the throat.
Most of the day yesterday was okay but now that I’m at home and alone with my thoughts I can’t help but think this one dose I took is going to destroy what’s left of my mental health. Idk how to proceed with applying my next dose this afternoon.
Anyone have any advice or anything similar in terms of mental health and T?
I’ve been on 0.25mg for 5 weeks now. I feel my appetite is adequately suppressed, so I don’t feel the need to increase my dose. I have lost about 8lbs since starting.
The problem is, about 4-5 days after my dose, I get sulfur burps that result in needing to vomit to feel better. The vomiting usually happens just once, and then the rest of the day I can barely eat. Then after another day or so, I can eat normally again.
I don’t want to stop taking ozempic because I have absolutely no control over my appetite without it. The food noise is just too much. But I’m also worried this is the start of irreversible gastroparesis and I don’t want to die, either.
Is this going to get better or am I going to need to stop taking it?