**ISTJ Si-Fi loop initiated by touch starvation.**
**The Experience**
I just experienced (as I have 2 or more times before) a very intense loop. It started as I was feeling extremely touch starved. Once a month or two I tend to have a few hours when I’m in my bedroom alone where I will feel an intense need for touch to the point where I actually start feeling an increasing ache in my shoulder and no matter how much I squirm around, squeeze my body or use blankets or pillows, I cannot get rid of the feeling.
**Looping Begins**
This at times leads me to a point where I’m spiraling in my head sometimes researching reasons why I feel the way I do or trying to find others who have experienced it. Mentally I get to this point of just focusing so much on how I’m feeling - thinking I’m stupid for feeling it (or that it’s fake) - but then pointlessly focusing and researching more into it - and the loop repeats to the point where I almost feel like crying but never do of course.
**Solution Looping (got there in the end)**
I found ways to mitigate the feeling but it’s like I wanted it to all stop but at the same time I didn’t or couldn’t get myself to actually stop it. After awhile of this I read somthing that told me to start with breathing and thankfully that te action I believe is what took me out of it. Now I’m fine and don’t feel intensely touch starved but it tends to happen every month or two like crazy.
**Conclusion**
Sorry for the essay. I couldn’t find anyone who had a similar experience so I thought I’d share it in case some ISTJ or someone else would feel validated by someone else’s experiences. (Though idk why I give a crap about validation, seems purely illogical lol)