I still miss the woman who tortured me and I always will
My girlfriend left me after 2 years of being together. she left me broken and feeling completely worthless. About the first year of our relationship was amazing and we rarely ever fought. she always had a temper but as time went on it got worse and worse. when she would get mad at me it would be about things like I was hanging out with friends for too long or that I had to go to lunch with family she would be upset and if I accidentally got the wrong thing at the store. At the start she would usually just scream and me and say hurtful things like I am stupid and worthless and she hates me. then it escalated to her hitting me and pulling my hair. I have struggled with self harm and suicidal thoughts all my life and she knew this so she used it as punishment she would force me to cut myself in front of her sometimes she would even do it herself and I let her because I loved her and I still do I don't know how I can love her after what she did but I do. Sometimes she would make me stay in ice baths for hours once I had to stay in there all night and I wasn't allowed to sleep. It all hurt very much but none of it hurt as much as this she had a custom comic book of us made for me as a gift I collect comic books so she had one of us made it was very cute and it was about how much we love each other she got mad and ripped it up and threw it in my face. it felt like she was ripping up my heart. that was the most thoughtful gift anyone has ever given me I felt so truly loved and seen. I felt like she loved me unconditionally and she ripped that feeling up