i recently started watching my dress up darling but every time i watch it i get so sad alot of similar anime make me cry from sadness too is this normal?
I’m 14 now but I understand stuff that I’m not supposed to understand at this age I don’t think so. When I was younger around 8-9 I got exposed to nsfw content I think that has messed me up I regret ever searching up those words classmates whispered about. I have a trash relationship with my dad early on age 5 and younger sister. NSFW content has been normalized for me I don’t react the same way all my other friends do my parents have a bad marriage they always fight they don’t live together (different countries) I live with my mom my sister with my dad. I feel so lonely and unloved by everyone I feel like a nothing idk if I’m depressed I’m not emo I push these feelings to the back of my head I’m afraid to talk to a lot of people I don’t want to tell anyone this not even my mom. I don’t know bro I can’t go on like this I’m so empty
Im 15 Idk if this is just a phase growing up but it has been like this for 2 something years I had to move schools 3 times the past 5 and a half years I keep losing everything and all my friends I had to go live with my dad for 4 years he’s been harsh on me (yelling shouting arguing controlling beating me) I live with my mom now where I believe is a better place. Lately I’ve felt so sad and hollow Idk if people get cringed out when reading this.
Im not emo I’m not sure if I’m depressed I’m afraid to reach out I procrastinate a lot and feel so painful not physically but in my head. I watch anime’s like my dress up darling I ai generate romance stories and more to temporarily cure my loneliness but it just hurts me more.
I have no best friends I don’t text anyone on a frequent basis I hide this side of me when I’m in school I push these feelings to the back of my head. I’ve never had a relationship but I really want one at the same time I don’t want a relationship I just need a close someone to comfort me.