u/Leading_Meet4360

Now for context I've dyed my hair since I was 9 years old. All different colors and patterns, then when I was about 18 I bleached my hair with no intention of putting a bright color in. Everyone really liked it and so did I, so I've had bleach blonde hair since then. I'm now 22 and throughout those years I've had dreams of dying it. However I would call them nightmares. I either have a manic episode in my dreams and dye it, to then regret it or accidentally dye it from not reading the hair dye box. It always ends up terrible, so bad that when I wake up I have been crying because I think my hair is ruined. I'm a natural brunette but in these dreams I only ever dye it black. I'm just trying to figure out what this could all mean. Any help or insight would be appreciated thanks.