Thoughts please if you can. Lost and need perspective.
I'm 28, struggling to build a career. I worked here and there in data analytics, an AD, a Video editor. made a couple 5 min short. I feel like I don't have any expertise because I haven't done anything consistently for a long time. I have spent most time unemployed lately in the last 3 years. rn too. it's harder everyday to DO anything, even get out of bed. i know I can see the depression spurting out as well.
Point is, i have thought of one thing. I thought of joining my dad's small company (yes that's how I could spend time unemployed and long history to why I never joined it in the first place. one reason is I don't see myself as a person who runs a business.) Start by going to his work 3 times a week. Get familiar, gain confidence and make it a day job that I can handle day in day out. BUT I am a filmmaker. I know it. so I start a page, make the kind of philosophical videos I want to. write. act. edit. do all of this for 2 years.
will I be able to make films later? wouldn't the business engulf me? being a businessman is not a part-time job. can't half ass it. if you knew me, you'd say yeah you're not the businessman type. isn't running a business also about passion? am I being delusional? idk so lost that I had to make this post. i don't want to talk about this with friends cause I already have talked a lot about careers with them and rightly so, in the end, they say just do it. but it's difficult to believe myself rn tbh.