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Which came back as low.... I actually figured that would be the case. Her Pheno is in the right range at 27.2, so her neuro doesnt want to do anything with that. Her Keppra levels came in at 9.3, which is considered low.

So... we are raising her Keppra from 3000 mg. 2x per day to 3750 2x per day. If that doesnt work... then we will go back to 3000 mg 3x per day.

So far.... so good. It's only been a week. but so far we are good. Keep your fingers crossed.

Sally had a vet appointment this morning to test her Keppra levels recommended by her Neuro after her last cluster round, and when I walked in, I handed her leash over to the vet assistant who loves her. See Sally had a seizure last night and we are currently in watch mode, so far, just the one... knock on wood.

As she was getting information, I realized I was spilling to her about how tired I am of dealing with this. Was up all night monitoring Sally, and when I did sleep, I had nightmares of her having a seizure. This is now common for me.

This whole situation, I realized at that moment, is messing with my mental health. The constant on guard, never truly relaxing or just being because you are waiting. My patience is gone, I am short tempered, I am in a constant, albeit at times lowered state of anxiety, I am angry because dealing with Sally takes away time from my other dog, and I get no relief because it's just me. the financial part of it is crazy, but I am blessed that I have insurance that covers 90%. But it's the constant worry, maybe the expectations that are always dashed, the loss of plans at the drop of a hat. It's all so much.

So I am wondering... how is your mental health, and what do you do to help alleviate some of this anxiety?