I miss the baby I had in my dream
Last night I had a crazy dream that I was pregnant and I birthed a baby girl. I’m aware of the meanings of this kind of dreams, there’s actually a big change that’s about to happen in my life so this might be the reason. But what messes me up the most is that the dream was so long and so vivid that when I woke up this morning I was wondering where my baby was and I was so upset when I realised it was just a dream.
Mind you I’m a 21yo lesbian so the chances of me ever being pregnant are very low lol. Also I’m absolutely repulsed by the idea of being pregnant nor I love the idea of having kids. I think I’d like to adopt one someday but not in the close future.
This said, I actually miss that baby, I don’t even know why. The dream started when I was 9th months in, then I went into labour and then I spend several days with my baby, so I feel like I’ve actually lived this reality. It’s so weird. Nothing similar has ever happened to me, even though I often have very strange and messed up dreams.
Also, I think the way that baby was conceived was not consensual but I’m not sure, I remember taking about it with a friend. I also remember I was so scared before giving birth, only my parents knew and it was like I “forgot” to be pregnant till the very last month, when all the dream happened. Idk if it makes sense.
Has anyone ever had a similar experience?