Imposter vibes & Going through the motions this Mothers Day
Forgive me Father, Mother’s Day is approaching and I feel like an impostor mom because I feel NOTHING.I was chatting with my friend and told her that parenthood has not been rewarding or joyous for me. I feel like I’m simply giving minors shelter. Every day feels like survival mode. I’m never excited about seeing them take part in something .. despite always giving encouraging words and pushing them to follow their heart and dreams. My daughter is 24 and moves like Ive abused her. I can’t wait for her to move back out so I can get some peace. Nothing I do is enough for her… no matter how much I’ve sacrificed.
She begged me to give her a brother, and now that he’s here.. she has so much to say and is so critical of my parenting, yet she offers just her unsolicited opinion while not being of any assistance that is helpful to his schedule or mine.
With my son, I had postpartum depression. He had colic. For the first four years of his life I was so e
emotionally disconnected from him. I left his father. When we broke up, my child’s father moved in with a woman and her two kids, and now he is raising our child in that new household while slowly erasing me as the mother. He took me to court behind my back ( I accidentally stumbled across the court docket months after the date) , and I’m thankful that the judge threw out the phony full custody case.My sons grandmother is an emotionally abusive nutnutcase and Im exhausted.