idk if anyone else feels like this but being a girl in singapore who’s just not conventionally attractive is such a weird in-between space
like i have slightly tanned skin, curly hair, features that just don’t fit the “singapore pretty” standard and it’s so obvious sometimes. i’m never the girl guys notice first, or even second. i’m just there. i don’t get approached, i don’t get that kind of interest, and after a while you start to internalise it like ok maybe i’m just not that girl
and it messes with your head bc people will still tell you “you’re pretty!”
what makes it worse is the whole race thing. being indian here is already complicated. you get casual racism from people who call themselves your friends, like little jokes or comments that you’re supposed to just laugh off. but then from the other side, you get judged by other indians for not being “indian enough” in how you act or look.
so you end up feeling like you don’t fully belong anywhere. not the beauty standard here, not fully accepted in your own community either
and it’s exhausting bc you start wondering if you’re just meant to be overlooked. like you’ll always be the “nice girl” or the “funny friend” but never the one someone actually wants
anyway just needed to get that off my chest im probs overreacting HAHA