I have manifested a lot of cool things in life by imagining/having my desires within. The issue is, especially in terms of friends, work, and love - I always end up losing them in ways that make me question my self worth or if they were even things that were “meant” for me.
For example, I truly believe I manifested a partner after I spent a few months acting as if I was in love all alone. The person who came matched nearly everything I wanted until at some point their efforts subsided which then caused problems. I am no longer in a relationship because I was disrespected a lot and sidelined. I tried my very best to affirm what I desired, and while they had temporary success, it felt exhausting or like a crutch. And so I let the relationship play out without affirming or revising and it’s done.
Do you all have similar issues where you feel capable of manifesting, but keeping the manifestations feel like something you have to continuously mold to sustain?
I wondered if it is a self concept issue, but even that is something that I feel wavers over time and requires consistent maintenance. Is this the reality of conscious manifestation or am I just being lazy?