u/Laureanaa

i need to vent because i’m carrying too much right now. my older brother was always my favorite person since i was a little girl and he was the kindest person ever always helping everyone. he was an athlete and a weightlifting champion a while ago and he had a good job and was making good money. our life was actually great back then. we are 3 brothers and im the only girl and the youngest in the family. but then everything changed because of bad friends who kept convincing him to just try a little bit of drugs and as time went by it got so much worse. we didnt know what was happening at first until we found out and it was the worst news ever. he is now a heavy addict and he lost his job and is just drowning in debt.
sometimes he does bad things like getting into loud arguments and fighting with my other brother and my dad just to get money for his addiction. but then later he feels so guilty and starts crying and apologizing saying it is beyond his control and he just cant stop it anymore. he has been trying for 3 years but the longest he stayed clean was only one month then he goes back to it again. we tried so many doctors but nothing worked at all.
the debt is just getting bigger for my dad and he works in another city so he is only home one week every month. i still cant believe this is my life now. i am just a 17 year old girl and i cant handle all this weight on my shoulders. i dont even have a sister to talk to or share my pain with so i am always sad and my dad is always stressed and my other brothers hide their pain by being angry at him.
he hasnt gone to a treatment center yet but he really has to. we are so scared because people say not everyone gets better and some people even lose their minds there. also my family is not the type that goes out or travels and my mom doesnt even let me go out with my friends so i feel very trapped and sad. the solution is clear that he needs professional help but we have tried so much with no luck. i just hope he finds peace and that we can finally be free from this sadness. we are a family that cares about each other and that is why we are so broken. people might say we should have known sooner but we really didnt expect this from him specifically. i dont know what to do anymore please just pray for us and give me any advice you have. thank you for reading.
(Sorry if their is any miskakes i used translation)