Relationships 🕊️
I'm a near 35 year old man who has yet to have been blessed by a single authentic relationship in his life. Through Divine grace and time in self reflection, I've finally ordered myself toward God and have committed myself to spending each day striving to live according to His Will
This level of purposeful living was not an accident, it was discovered through providence, but listen to me when I say these words, unless I feel dating can also draw me closer to God, I really don't want to commit my energy into it.
The most flawed and unhealthiest aspect of my former disordered way of living was the amount of time I spent trying to win the affection of others. It was grace that helped me realize that the open wound I had been living with was only going to keep festering away until I made God the only one Whose vision of my worth was worth caring about.
This is my line in the sand. Unless she can reveal a deeper more intimate relationship to Christ with me, I don't think it's in God's interest for me to marry her.
I want to share this testimony with everyone who's spent too much time suffering in isolation or has allowed rejection to cause them to be despondent. Let dating be a gift and not a burden. Let it be ordered toward good. Be inspired to help yourself be destined for Heaven. Spend time in Eucharistic Adoration. Don't let your prayer life be lived from Sunday to Sunday, find ways to dedicate every day to Christ. Know your actual value comes from God alone. Don't let your faith be dead, do works for the Glory of God.
What may be most important of all, give grace to yourself and all those around you. God wants you to do His Will, live every moment you can toward making that happen.