Then and now one year old
I have to get this out today and don't want to tell the people around me... This time last year I was laying in a hospital bed wondering if my baby was going to come at 27 6. An hour from now I was laying in recovery after my placenta ruptured and I had an emergency c section. My baby girl was born I got to see her as they wheeled her by. Never gave birth before didn't get to make a birth plan never got a third trimester. My baby girl was born at 2 lbs 14 oz. Shes the only one I'll ever birth and I still grieve for my third trimester. After 55 days my baby girl came home. She is now almost 20 lbs. She is trying to walk. She is rolling to get where she wants to go. She has a smile that can light up the darkest cave. She laughs she bables and talks. She is the most amazing part of every one of my days.
In the trenches I wondered if we'd make it here but here we are. I'm still a little traumatized by the way she got here but she's so great. If you're in the the depths of the trenches now, when the sun finally comes I promise it is so bright and so amazing. Praying for everyone that is still looking at their baby through glass, asking if they can hold them, filled with worry. Praying for your brighter day.