Everytime I leave therapy I never want to go back
I’m in the yellow zone for health complications and have gained so much weight. It’s not that my therapist and me don’t get along. I really like her. I just don’t feel worthy of “recovery” it just feels like all that hard work of losing weight just to gain it all back. I’m back at the weight I was two years ago. According to her graphs and stuff it is working and my brain can function but it seems the only way it wants to function is by focusing on everything wrong with me.
I feel like I should just quit, like it’d just be better to go back to restricting. Drop out of school and willow in my woe. My therapist said the psych might have offered me to go to res but I don’t want that. I just want to suffer in peace. I mean mom’s an alcoholic and she’s not dealing with it so why do I have to deal with my issues.